Bile penganggur takleh tido

Skrg nih kul 2.33a.m.. n still, aku tak leh tido. Sux giler rsnya mengenang nasib.. hahahaha dr tadik aku duk pikir psl keje. Can u imagined, almost 2 months u r doing the same routine (bgn kul12 tghr, men tenet, tgk tv, jln2 time ptg) and your brain are not working mcm zaman student dulu2.. i can feel my 4 years engineering knowledges are getting rusty.. dah berkarat dah nih...

2 bulan! 2 bulan u juz menumpang at your bro home.. waiting and waiting.. setiap hari buka email, u r hoping to see an email, a respond from the company u apply a job with.. and bile takde respon, ape yg u all akan rasa? like me, memula rasa agak ok, but makin lama rasa makin tak tenang..

dah berpuluh2 and mungkin hundreds application have been sent.. dgn harapan.. 'berilah aku kerja'.. kalau tak dpt keje pun, 'kasilah aku OJT with allowance.. semoga otak aku tak berkarat'.

for some people, diaorg maybe tak kisah sgt... ala, baru 2 bulan.. rilek la kan? tapi people like me, have already planned a lot of things... aku punye expectation utk bekerja adalah selepas sebulan menganggur.. bagi aku skrg, dpt interview pun dah sgt menggembirakan..

bile dgr seorg demi seorg kwn2 dah bekerja, even ada yg dah merasa 1st gaji dey all.. aku makin rs cam loser.. hahaha.. and today, aku tak berjaya melelapkan mata.. bukan pikir pasal tayar motor yg bocor.. tapi psl kerja..

buka jek fesbuk 2,3 hari nih, ada yg post shoutout kata dah dpt keje.. ada yg post dah merasa 1st gaji as an engineer or professional.. ada yg post ngah prepare workplan utk thesis master.. ada yg post ngah prepare nak lapor diri utk buat master... but aku.. nothing change except my brain is gettin rusty and my bodyweight is increasing...wut a loser i am? duh!

good pointer seems to be nothing to me rite now.. and i'm juz decided to wait till 11july.. after that, if i still menganggur.. aku juz pikir nak keje kat memana tempat.. jadi cashier ke, waiter ke, jual tiket ke... asalkan ade duit masyuk.. target aku ms aku konvo, aku ada duit utk byr jubah, byr kos konvo, byr harga gambar konvo, byr kos perjalanan dan penginapan dan paling penting byr kos bwk my parents and siblings berjalan2 di kota melaka...